Day 6: "I'm sorry..."

I'm sorry I never gave you the credit you deserved.

I'm sorry my love got lost in all empty words.

I was the bird and you were my cage, I couldn't wait to escape.

See, we were just two hurt people trying to heal each others' pain/

Who didn't understand love's disdain works in such crazy ways.

With love, there's no play book or rules to follow.

You were the blood coursing through through my veins, so my heart became hollow(ed).

And together, we wollowed and withered until we blamed each other for our own wrongs.

So, I'm sorry I became so weak trying to make you so strong.

And you strung along because you thought you loved me.

So, I'm sorry I wasn't the person you thought you fell in love with.

I wasn't who I thought I was either.

See, somewhere in this bad dream, I learned to need you.

I grew dependent on your existence, and I'm sorry I didn't resist this.

I insisted on letting you stay because I didn't know how to be alone anymore.

I was unsure of how to give myself what I needed.

So my need for you superseded my own belief.

A belief I never truly believed, because I abandoned ship and wasn't able to leave.

I found myself head over heels, falling in love with your ideals, in search of something real.

So, I'm sorry I didn't love myself enough to truly love you.

For being selfishly selfless, and for not putting myself above you.

I'm sorry I expected so much from you.

Too much than you were willing to give.

You could do no wrong...until you did.

Then, I remember when I started making changes.

I started loving myself, and it was you that I now hated.

So, I'm sorry that I didn't have the patience to waste any more time.

I'm sorry that "I'm sorry" is all that fills these broken lines.

In short,

I'm sorry you ain't shit.

Actually, fuck that...you did this.

I ain't apologizing for shit.